Don’t you just love days when you have nothing to do?
Oh, you don’t have any of those days?
Yeah, me either.
I love my job. I’ve said that before, right? I love the
people I work with, my school, my students…the whole shebang. It’s great.
Here’s what’s killing me. Are you ready?
If you don’t get that reference, we can’t be friends, okay?
But, in all honesty, THERE’S NEVER ANY TIME.
Okay, there’s time to work and eat and sleep…and that’s it.
What fun is that?
When do I get to go to the beach or read a book or take a nap?
Those of you who aren’t teachers are totally rolling your
eyes at me and shaking your heads. I can hear you muttering the word summer under your breath.
Guess what? I worked then, too.
Actually, I don’t feel sorry for myself. I’m just feeling…
Ugh. Look, if Zack Morris says it’s a feeling, it is.
Here's part of the thing: at our teacher in-service we focused on “The 7 Habits of
Highly Effective People”. It’s actually really interesting when you get down to
it. But…that’s hard.
How can I put things into quadrants and prioritize when I
want to do all the things?
What are my priorities? How do I map out my week when things
change everyday?
Basically: what is my life?
Sadly, I find myself asking that a lot. ;)
My problem isn’t that there isn’t enough time; it’s that I
want to do too much!
I can’t imagine what it’s like having a family and trying to
prioritize things. (Let’s be firm though, people, this is about me. I mean, there’s
a cat and a teenager at my house and they’re both pretty self-sufficient…mostly.)
Again, my problem is that I want too much out of life. Is
that so wrong? I want to work, worship, read, watch television, ride a bike,
talk to a friend, and, oh yeah, SLEEP.
I love my job.
I guess it’s hard to prioritize when everything seems so important:
a school function, a family reunion, church events. It’s not like I think I’m that important, but maybe the things
I do are? I know my job is, that’s for sure. I want to "give it all I’ve got" and "be
all that I can be" and all that jazz in that aspect, but at the end of the day it’s
hard to give more.
That’s where frustration pokes its ugly little head in.
Sometimes I just want the world to stop, just for a little
while. I want to take an hour to read a book without a million things on my
mind, or watch a movie without feeling guilty that I blew something or someone
off to do it. Then I feel guilty for thinking that!
It’s lose-lose and Dr. Covey teaches us to think win-win!
(Ha!) What’s win-win when all you’ve got
is twenty-four hours? Where’s my little white rabbit telling me I’m late as I
watch my calendar months fly off into the wind?
I’m not worried, I guess. Maybe the busyness makes me feel
like I’m serving purpose. Like, if I’m just sitting around my butt then I’m not
doing anyone any good and if I’m running my butt off, then maybe my pants will
fit a little bit better…hehe.
I guess the point is, sometimes you feel like Jessie Spano
on caffeine pills. And sometimes, you don’t need the pills.
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